Dear Mom,

I bought a book, called "Do Dead People Watch Me Shower". I read it in a day and a half. It was so interesting. I makes me feel closer to you. It makes me comforted to think of the after life in this way.

Tomorrow is 6 weeks since you have been gone. I miss you more each day. It is so amazing how many little things make me think of you. Any thing you have ever purchased for me, where before I hardly remembered you bought for me. Yesterday I pulled out a spreader at family dinner, and remembered that you gave it to me. I always just thought you were so kind for the things you gave me. Now, I am so appreciative of them. They help me think of you daily.

The kiddos are doing great. Maddie is just doing amazing things. You would be getting such a kick out of her. I wish you were here to see her. I wish you could have held Cameron. I really just want to touch your hand one more time. It is so weird, I actually wish I could go back to the week you were in the hospital. I would even take the days you were on the ventilator and I couldn't talk to you... cause you were still there, still here. Still with us. I know all of these things are completely selfish on my part. You are so much better off where you are now, but I can't help but to be a bit selfish, cause I am missing you Mom.