Dear Mom,

I am having a rough day today. I keep thinking of the fact that Maddie has not seen you in almost 3 weeks. I am still so happy I snuck her into the hospital that Thursday. But I can't help but to wonder why she thinks she hasn't seen you. It hurts so bad I want to throw up when I think about it.

I have been so at peace the past week. I know it is cause you have been by my side through the c-section and Cam's first week. You must be off helping someone else now, because the hurt is back full force. I had a bad morning, and now a bad evening.

I am going to take a nap, but had to write first, or I knew I would not be able to stop crying long enough to sleep. I just wanted to tell you: Cam is beautiful, and I miss you.

Missy