Perspective

I am often on the Baby Center boards. These are very helpful and encouraging to me. Sometimes though, these boards have very sad news. Little ones with illnesses, miscarriages etc. Well today, I read a post from a woman who lost her baby from SIDS on Aug 2nd. How Sad. I grabbed Maddie and held her while reading this post. I cried for this woman, someone I don't even know. I couldn't imagine.

Maddie slept very restlessly last night. I watched her on the video monitor as I was trying to fall asleep. She also woke up at 3:00, 4:00, 5:00 and then 6:00 when I finally fed her. This morning I was feeling tired and curious as to why my baby who was sleeping through the night was suddenly up often through the night. After reading this woman's story on BBC, I felt appreciative that she was waking up every hour.

The love I feel for Maddie is so overwhelming, I couldn't imagine suddenly NOT having her to love. And having her to love me. I know they say that having a baby you get no appreciation for it. So not true. When Maddie and I are snuggling and she talks to me in her sweet coos and gurgles, I feel her love. When I go to get her out of her crib in the morning, and she is so happy and amazed to see me that she smiles from ear to ear, I feel her love. When I am holding her and I feel a sense of warmness on my arm, at first I feel her love, then I realize she just spit up on me!! (Sorry had to throw that in there, it was getting to mushy. But it is also very true! hee hee!)

Pray for this woman that she can find the strength to go on, cause I am not sure all of the prayers in the world could help me to be OK if something of this nature happened to me.

Have a happy Friday and a great weekend!